The last few weeks have been rough. I don't know if it's that I am sick and over tired, or exhausted from my run at being a "single mom"(for those of you out there who do it everyday, you are my hero), or the stress of packing to move. It just seems like it has been one thing after another the last few weeks. My heart has been so heavy with personal/family related issues, and the reality of leaving my "home" in a few weeks. I am SO not good with goodbyes. I have just felt like everything I know is changing before my eyes and there is no stopping it. And let's be honest, I am not great with change. Of coarse, money is tight right now due to student loans, no job, paying for BAR expenses, etc. and that is always a stress in itself. I have been sick the last week or so, not to mention that I did something to my back and am having a hard time getting around comfortably. I have felt sad and disappointed in people who I have loved and trusted as my friends, and through it all I have had no one to come home at night, hold me close and make it all feel better. Collin is the one person that no matter what has happened, ALWAYS makes it better and calms me down. It has been a test to be here on my own. I guess I just needed to vent more than anything, so I apologize for the boring post, just the thoughts I am having. We just found out today that Makenna needs to get tubes in her ears and they have to do it next week before Collin and my mom get here. So, once again, it leaves me scrambling to try and find help and baby sitters. I HATE having to ask my friends to pick up the slack in my life when I know they are all busy with lives and families of their own. Thank you to all of you who have stepped in. I truly appreciate it. I guess this is just life, and we play with the hand we have been dealt. I guess the best thing for me to do right now is look toward the future and be grateful for the multitude of blessings that I HAVE been given, because I know they are there. Please keep our little family in your prayers next week as Collin will be taking the BAR and Makenna will be getting her tubes in. We love you all and are glad you are in our lives.
I think the Valium for my back is starting to talk so I will end the rant here. Thanks for the support.
7 comments:
Chin up girl. This too shall pass.
got nothin' but love for ya! hope everything gets better.
Yes, you definetely have a full plate. You've done a great job so far!! Love you all. We'll be thinking about you.
Hang in their girl! Hard times make us stronger! I love the girls bff t-shirts and your bangs! I just chopped mine off again I got them a little short this time! Will you tell Nichole hi from us!
We love you here! I am sorry that you are going through all of this, let a lone all by your self! I wish that I could just come out there and do it all for you! I love you! It will get better...it always does!
Hey Girlfriend! Remember, when you don't feel good physically, you don't feel good mentally. You are TOO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED! Keep that thought up front. Hopefully you feel better by the weekend, maybe we can visit my brother, relax, have a few drinks(ha)or bottled water, and sit in the hot tub. we should work on a sitter! How about that picture you took in the mule? Please send it to me when you get a chance.
Greeat blog you have here
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