I feel like all I have done lately is complain. This post will not be any different. It has been a rough couple of weeks, and it only seems to continue to get worse. I am still sick. I am still in pain from my back. I have been totally procrastinating packing my house up and soon it is gonna slap me in the face. Makenna has to get tubes in on Monday morning, and I was really hoping they could wait til Collin got here...but they can't. We have been running crazy trying to get in to the Dentist, eye doctor, pediatrician, etc before we move because I don't know what will happen with insurance. And now, tonight Makenna started throwing up. I am so tired I have fallen asleep 3 times this week just taking a "moment" on the couch (no, I am not pregnant). I am stressed about the BAR this week, the move, the goodbye's. I just feel like I am about ready to pull my hair out. Not to mention, I feel bad for all of you who are reading this. I usually vent to Collin....but obviously, he's not around. Marlee has been staying up late with me and watching my shows (don't worry mom, only the appropriate ones)with me. I feel like the last few weeks have been testing me as a mom/wife/sister/friend/ daughter and I am not doing a very good job. I am afraid that at any given moment I am gonna break down in tears. I suppose that is just life... what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right? I just hope it doesn't kill me!!!
For anyone interested, Collin takes the BAR Tuesday and Wednesday of next week, and like I said Makenna is getting tubes on Monday. Please keep our little family in your prayers we could really use it.
(I apologize if this is scattered, I have already taken my pills, and am trying to be quiet because of the little people sleeping in the bed beside me)
7 comments:
I'm sorry Mandy... it has to get better, it feels like it never ends sometimes, but sure it does!! you do need to rest so try to take naps when you can... everything else can wait, seems like it can't but it will!! sending our love and prayers!!!
Yes, we will pray for Collin. It sounds to me like we need to throw in a few extra prayers for you too. :) Just think. In a few months, when this is all over, this is going to make a great story! And you will be so much stronger and you will be so proud of yourself for making it through this. Hang in there dear!
We are so sorry that you have to go through this. I remember the bar and it was the worse. I remember it for Tom, Jeff and Pat too. It is a lot of pressure on your little family. Hang in there. Someday you will be old, aching, and crotchity, but you will be retired and visiting your grandkids. It is much better. Doug
I'm so sorry for everything going on lately. Good luck in the next little while. I will be thinking about you!
YOU CAN DO IT!! You've got all sorts of friends and family that are praying for you. Hugs!
Hang in there. I'm so nervous just for you guys!
Ha ha, love that last pic of Kenna in the tub. Hopefully that put a smile on your face at the end of a hard day. Stuff like that happens all the time around here.
I am still so elated after finding out that you guys will be back in May for graduation!!!!!!!!!!! Holy cow, that is so aweosme!!!!!!
Good luck to Collin next week. I remember when Troy took his boards last summer, thats all we could think about, and any support was so thoughtful. Our thoughts and prayers will be with him and you, especially as you pack and move. Yikes! This is like my life last summer, deja vu. I wish I were there to help you!!! Stay strong, lots of people love you, and miss you!!!!
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